it's been awhile.

Okay. (I don't know what, but I always start my words with "okay". Okay (see). Just wanna say hi to you, I know I haven't write since I got back to Pitt, I guess senior year takes all my hours spend on computer. Thank you. SOB SOB SOB.

It wasn't bad tho.

Okay sampai sini saja. Saya malas AMAT.

Bye.

rindu sekolah?

Today was the tenth day of banci.

Went through so many things and here is something good to remember.

Me: So you're teaching at PFS eh?

Cikgu: Yes, do you know anyone there?

Me: Noooo. Last time I went to BJ, Bukit Jambul. (eventhough he didn't ask puuun)

Cikgu: Oh really? BJ now is the best school in Penang.

Me: **smiling**

Wait, like seriously ke? Alhamdulillah. :)

I miss those good 'ol times at school.

Tapi takmau balik sekolah balik la.

yesterday.

I want

another day

like

yesterday

and the day before.

He listened.

And still listening.

Alhamdulillah.

**sengih sampai ke telinga**

hiks.

3 kali and shouldn't ask for more.

hiks.

Yesterday was a fairy tale.

June 24th and 25th.

Langkawi not for the beach?

Just got back from the legend Island, Langkawi and trust me we didn't even soak (mandi lagi tak la) onto the ayaq laut. DANG!Kalau la monday morning tu tak hujan. Hmmmmph.It's okay. We had fun there. :) wait... I feel like... watching Ninja Assassin laaa.Hiks.

kakak, mak, adik.

maybe a tornado.

puting beliung in english is called tornado.

i think i saw one.

using my chokia cell phone camera, some photos are taken.

oh man! im so need a better camera.

nikon d three thousand maybe.

takdak duit.

sobs.

update!

Hello.

It's been awhile.

I know.

Sorry, forgive me. Will you?

Haish.

Malaysia so far? Panas sangat! Tapi best sangat!

Plan A. Failed. :( Plan B. There's NO plan B. Plan C. Make one.

Taktau! Haish.

Food? HEAVEEEEEEN! but didn't get the chance for nasi ayam percik ayamas! nanti lah!

JALAN trip with the girls? Entah. Senyap je.

Movies?

Shrek forever after with the kiddos was hilarious! Lagenda Budak Setan with Mek Shkinny-bitch was superb! And Prince of Persia, just made me fall in love with Dastan! ♥♥♥ Okay. Malas. Panas. Ngantuk. Babai.

bonda is the best!

❤❤❤

Of all the rights of women, the greatest is to be a mother.Thank you bonda. Happy mother's day! I love you!
And to mak ngah, mak cik, mak lang, mak su, and all mothers in the whole universe, you know how great you are!

Bonda and momma's to be. HAHAHA

❤❤❤

oh she's twenty!

♪ ♫♪ ♫♪ ♫

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to adikku comel...

Happy birthday to you...

♪ ♫♪ ♫♪ ♫

May you be blessed, granted and gifted by Allah swt adik. Have a great year ahead of you. I know you will. I miss you so muchies that no words ever describe. See you soon in Malaysia muh dear.

lotsa
❤❤❤

kakak :)

takuya kimura

Saya suka abang ni!
Fullstop.

:)

tak best.

tak best is a new just-defined-by-me(?) feeling. it was here, i bet it is still here. haih. okay, ignore the feeling and guddo nitto! DEq is at 2pm tomorrow!

final; it's showtimeeee!

Final week; Spring 2010.

I wish I could answer this way for my DEq and Theoretical maths classes.


Highly unlikely; salah lah pulak.

Or maybe this way;

Eh salah ye?

Or this;


Confirm Jasun and Dr. Rabier gelak guling2.
HAHAHA.
I did too.


Do you?



All the best for final everyone! Have fun studying! InsyaAllah dipermudahkan olehNya! :)

hide and seek

When the closest one-headed-person betrays you;
for someone he/she loves (?);
for someone he/she isn't sure loves him/her back(?).

Don't give too much;
but take as many as you can.

There's no such things as "dia sayang aku sangaaaaaat."

Thank you. You just ruined the best sibling-hood on the entire universe.

I talk like colors.

L.

Haih.

And now;
they are playing hide and seek with you.


You should just go with the flow then.



**sigh**

i talk like colors

From google translate. HAHAHA.

●✭☆✭●
Wait,
bulan and bintang,
how do you know by not knowing who you are makes me happy?
What if I'm not?

Haha.Hahaha. Hahahaha.

note to herself;

Dear Shekha,

What's with 20/07/2007?

I have such a bad memory. Help me to recall.

A date.

Yes.

Written in "Malaysian way".

Yes.

Year two zero zero seven.

Yes.

Then?

Then?

Ish budak ni!

This game is getting more and more interesting, kan?

CREEPY, indeed.

Do you still wanna play?

Maybe.

:)

Wait, don't you think the fifth entry reveals something?
You, bulan and bintang are friends. They are single (tak perlu kut; like you care kan? ps: stop gelak guling2 for this! HAHA).

I suppose they are up in the sky; Malaysia. What do you think?

Hurrrm.
**shoulder up; with innocent and blur look**

Typical you.

**silent**

Wait, which slide kita stop semalam eh?

What slide?

Astro la.

Oh!

30.

Okay. Let's continue studeyyyyah.

Let's do it baby!

-Herself

-Shekha

who are you?

Hello bulan and bintang,

Please answer me. Please. I need an honest answer from you. I mean both of you. Do we know each other? Or are we totally strangers? Please. I would really appreciate this. And I'll never ask for anything else.

**Finger crossed**

:)

Yours,
Shekha

Pitt News frontpage

Our yesterday's kuih are out in the today's Pitt News front page!

"The Malaysian Cultural Camaraderie (MalaCCa) raised money with a bake sale featuring Malaysian desserts outside the Union yesterday. MalaCCa was certified as an official Pitt student organization in mid-February." - PittNews front page.

Congratulations to MalaCCa and thank you to those who participated! - President

psssttttt untung $44 lah :)

MalaCCa's Spring-Roll!

Kuihhhh kuihhhh. Singgit satuuuu. Come and taste our local dessert for just one dollar! We're new club in town ; Malaysia Student Association! Only Aishah has the "talent" to do this. Orang lain a bit pemalu. :)

From Facebook Event : Come and visit us in front of the union to savor the taste of Malaysian cakes! All items are priced at just $1. Be sure not to miss it! .Malaysian Cultural Camaraderie (MalaCCa).


Yaaaaaaaay. Thanks and Congrats MalaCCa's members. We made it! Successfully indeed. Most of the kuih were sold OUT and they taste super sedap amat sangat! Spring roll was the one sold out first. Pssssttt... tengok la who made it - Me and Faz ; a perfect combo from Amberson #23! Anyway, everyone contributed a lot too. Here's the kuih of the day :

1. Spring Roll or Popiah goreng (Me and Faz)
2. Banana Balls (excuse the term; we're just trying to make it sounds catchy!) or Cekodok (Nik and Hassan)
3. Banana Fritter or Goreng Pisang or Pisang goreng. Eh wait, even until now I'm still not sure which is right. DANG! (anyway, next time jangan letak kunyit!) (Nik and Hassan; again?)
4. Corn flavored Dadih ; sorry no pictures taken. **blushed** (Me)

5. Sweet potato ring (sape lagi bagi nama orang putih kat Kuih keria ni!) (Syaza and Rassyid)

yummy to my tummy!

6. Steamed layer cake or kuih lapis (me likes the color; pink and white is such a perfect combination kan?)
(Aishah)

7. Dont-know-what-to-call-this-in-English or Kuih ketayap
(Aishah with the help of Shekha)

8. Sirap the free drink
the what's in air sirap.

Berapa ye untungnya? Haha Syaza; cik Bendahari was so excited that she can't
wait to kira the untung. Hopefully we managed to double or triple the annual fees or the members as we need $$$ for the next activities. Go MalaCCa go. Eh wait, the pictures of the event might be out in the Pitt News. Hopefully. Penat I pakai comei2. DANG! Anyway, thanks everyone; Malaysia Boleh! ♥♥♥

hear me, do you?

Dear bulan and bintang,
I wanna be this girl again.
Heartbroken but strong.

Dear bulan and bintang,
Do you know that they call the third derivative "jerk"?

Dear bulan and bintang,
I don't wanna stay here.

Dear bulan and bintang,
It's already Monday, April the nineteenth.

Dear bulan and bintang,
My lips is getting better, so does my nose.

Dear bulan and bintang,
Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah.

:)

Dear bulan and bintang,
I wanna watch Action Kamen with Shin Chan.
Puhh-lis.



Dear bulan and bintang,
Why are you so far?

Dear bulan and bintang,
I had a cup of hot milo just now.

Dear bulan and bintang,
Sayonara means good bye in Japanese.

Dear bulan and bintang,
My pencil case is pink. There's also white flowers on it.

Dear bulan and bintang,
You don't hear me, do you?

***



Eh you two manade telinga. DANG. I lupa. :P

Eh kejap bulan and bintang,
ini comel kan?

more maths.

M A T H S homework turns me into a lazy bum bum bum.

I always come to be interested in a n y t h i n g -with maths but I couldn't feel the same when it comes to my homework. DANG! Malas sungguh nak buat hw ni. haish. I wish for solutions to appear in front of me seperti bulan jatuh ke riba. Cramster help me plsss! hahaha. Oh, here is something to share with y'all.
Ans: There is no solutions. HAHA. OKAY! ✓

Saya tak boleh malas! Adui. Whatever!

Eh wait.Tomorrow is Friday. Already? :)

Pheeew.

let them be.

Fine.
Whatever. Shouldn't people be happy with what you've achieved now? Even it's not that much.
Haha. Let them be.
I've met so many people in my life. Some were nice and still being one until today but some of them **sigh**.
Maybe Azu was right, "Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih" only apply kat shopping baju ja. Hehe.
I'm trying to be nice to them, I suppose I always do, but it always happen that I get hurt back. Dang.
So, ape lagi. Stop being nice, remain belagak and let them think that's what you are. Dang!
Like I care.
Let old friends remain old and there's no need to reconnect with them kan.
Thank you besties for still being one up until now. You know who you are.
Thank you new friends for care less who I was before.
And to old friends, sorry, I just don't do dramas like you taught me before.
Some relationships are better remain d i s c o n n e c t e d.
?;^>

Tak rindu puuuuuun.

celebrity not.

I'm doing this for myself, as a self reminder. Maybe. Maybe not.

DIM. Oh shouldn't it suppose to be DIY for do it yourself. It's okay. I'm not a celebrity.

Well, I can't have others to do this for me since I am not a celebrity.

Hidung tak mancung, pipi tembam. I will never be a celebrity. Oh well, semakin bulat -Omark. A compliment? Celebrity? You know I am not.

Shekha dah kurus banyak dah -Faz. Dang! Dulu gemuk sangat ke? Takpelah bukan celebrity pun.

Sama je aku tengok - Adik. Haha bukan celebrity mek.
And the best of all would be Bonda's - Takpe lah kakak, sihat sudah. :)
Still, not a celebrity. Yes.
Bonda is always be the one truth-but-honest-said. Saaaaayang mak ye. ♥♥♥

Do this, do that. Do ape ni? Let me get this clear. I found some pictures of me on Friendster and Myspace and OMG. Silent. **Haih** Cepatnya masa jalan kan and all this time, I gained and lose a lot that I did not realized, not that much. Fluctuate would be the best world to describe the evolution of me. Evolve lah sangat. Hehe. Eh, check this out and you'll agree with me.

Full of innocence. End of 2005.


When was it? See the date lah.


Summer 2006. With Dila.

McDonald.Late 2007. I think.


With Nadeen. ACTP Halloween Night. Around middle of 2008.

Sisters in green. 2008


Niagara Falls. Fall 2008.


Atlanta. Spring 2009

NYC. Early Summer 2009

Pittsburgh. Summer 2009


**to be continued.

nine reasons why.

Fine. Sekarang sangat homesick and nak balik so bad! Haish. I put the full blame on you Global Exchange. I went to see a clinician at Student Health Center, and she gave me a prescription, dang, my medication cost me $252. Mana nak korek duit bayar. :( The pharmacist called them but they said I wasn't in their coverage. Whatever. Haih. Terus balik rumah tak pergi kelas, anyway dah lambat pun to do so. JPA do semething about it pls.

Okay cakap pasal homesick, terus come out with kenapa saya suka rumah saya?

Here are nine reasons why :

1. Sebab dia best. Undeniably BEST. Define best; undefined.
2. Sebab ada mak and mak ngah. :) And they are best people in my life.
3. Sebab ada air-cond. Omaigod, not wanting to sound like a spoiled brat, but 23°C here in Pittsburgh already gives me headache, skin irritation, sunburn and too much "panassssssnya". Duh!
4. Sebab saya tidur nyenyak on bonda's bed. HAHA. Oh, but I love Mak Ngah's even more.
5. Fridge saya besar. But it never makes me fat. So true. I stayed home while waiting for SPM results and was so so so skinny back then. Rindu being one :(
6. TV. Bukan flat screen. Bukan LED tv. No full set of home theater or what so ever. But when I feel like watching it, naaaah it's there. Always there. Nakkkk tengooook tv OKAY!
7. Kitchen. Orang suka makan suka je masuk dapur aite? hihi :)
8. Friday or Saturday night. The kiddos will come lepak2 there, watch TV, main2 in Adik's room.
9. Whatever the reasons are, saya suka rumah saya jugak.

with Mak Ngah and Bonda; dalam rumah. :)

Nak balik. I know May is coming tapi nak balik! Nak balik. Quoting Omark; manja ketoi! Suka hati lah. :P


Okay continue buat homework; then tidur; esok kerja.

rindu.

**Ini cincai2. Saya agak malas. Danng.

Hello bloggie. I know you miss me. Forgive me that I abandoned you for quit a long. Now I'm back. Okay stop it Shekha! Cakap sorang2, are you okay? HAHAHA. No worries, I didn't create any imaginary friends. I have you, and you and you there. Oh you, and you and you know who you are. You know I miss you more and more. Most importantly I miss Mek Pa, my SUPER BEST ADIK. Ah well, she's the only one I ever had, best or not, she still is. Thank you Allah for my sister.

Mek Pa is a good driver. She is as good as Kimi Raikkonen. So true.

Sun? Moon? Stars?

Mana kamu ye?

A month to go, or less before Spring 10 semester ends. Hoyeaaah. Hoyeaaah.
I'm so cannot wait to get everything (3 finals - DEq, Variable Calc, Astronomy and 1 comm term paper left) done. I'm so look forward to see Tiqah, Fanna, and the rest of friends at Penn state. Dek, tunggu ore deh. Let's rock the State College! And most of all, March has come to an end, hello April, don't fool me! "Walk" faster so I can go home fast!

Done with the craps.

Here is the real updates! Saya sekarang pekerja perpustakaan Hillman 306. I'm so loving my job. Blue collar? What ever! 15 hours per week for $7.25 per hour. Haish now is the time to worry about the TAX. Ala US there are bunches of orang-orang kaya out there, charge them lah instead of me pekerja perpustakaan ja :( Lucky me kerja senang, so I should not complaint. HEHE. Colleagues yang super awesome. Paul yang baik hati even kecoh sikit bila susun buku berterabur. HAHA.

Study. Alhamdulillah. Even I just screwed up my DEq second test. Hancur harapan untuk A. Work harder for A- pun minus lah. *sob*sob. Lain, homework pun selori.

Fall 2010. Alhamdulillah. I get to register for all classes that I want. Haha the best part was I tried to ask my Math 1470 - Partial DEq prof. for a permission number to get into his class, since it's already closed. Dang! I hit a wrong guy,Jonathan Rubin, my classmate who share a same name with the prof. Hampeh. Buat malu je. But I got a reply from both where the prof. said he couldn't let me in since he already have 5 extra students. Sibuk je orang lain. Cari la kelas lain wey. HAHA. Thanks to Jon, for telling me that I can actually get the permission number for the Math Dept. Office. HAHA. Dapat pun. Puas hati. **Evil laugh**.

Rumah. Building 3. Apt. #23.
Toilet bowl buat hal lagiiiiiii! Haih. Luckily the maintenance people acted super fast. Thank you pakcik. Esok kalau buat hal lagi tolong betulkan lagi ye. :)

In a nutshell, byebye. Saya kena study.

think like a mathematician. dannng!

I found this somewhere when I googled for my variable calc homework problems. hihi.

Three people were asked whether it was better to have a wife or a mistress.

Doctor : "A wife, because studies have shown that wives have beneficial effects on your health."
Lawyer: "Definitely a mistress, because a wife will just take all your money in a divorce."
Mathematician: "Both. That way, your wife thinks you're with your mistress, your mistress thinks you're with your wife, and there's more time to do math."

breaking the spring.

Spring came earlier this year. Alhamdulillah. Now I can wear my flat crocs without any socks covered. Bye bye winter coats, bubbles and boots. Officially bye bye Winter! You know I'll miss you. Okay time flies speedily fast. Like seriously, my spring break is almost over. Road trip with the two couples was fun, so far. Errr... excuse the dramas. From Pitt to Chicago, Madison, Ames, St. Louis, UiUC, and next Purdue -I guess tempat paling best of the trip even we stayed less than 24 hours :( Wish I could stay longer! Definitely will go there again someday iA.

Later we stopped at Columbus. And here I am; at Barnes & Noble, Columbus, Ohio. I just can't wait to go back home. Pitt misses me, so am I. Well... to be exact my 10 pages communication term paper is waiting. Dannnng. I know this is crazy. I have less than 2 days to finish it (tolak tidur makan laqha). Mummy tolong sayaaaa. Haha. Pictures will be uploaded at FB, so you just wait.



Till here then. :)

drama is everywhere.

People said they envy me, "Pitt sikit orang best je korang, takde drama". Ohhh that's so not true. TIPU lah. Less characters doesn't mean the drama is shorter or less dramatic. Dannnng. Trust me it is wayyyyy not like what you think. Well, I am what I am, nampak mcm sangat selfish, yes I am. But isn't that better, waaaaaaay better indeed than you, who people thought "ooooh baiknya!".TIPU. Tak baik mana pun. Lagi dasyat ade lah. Heh.

Okay, lemme get this clear, am pissed off. SANGAT. Marahnye saya. Ya Allah, let this anger gone, never let it controls me, dear Lord. Kalau nak back off pun at least ckp la reason or ckp lah awal? Eh dah bagi reason, FINE. Selfish nya reason. Sedihnya, I did not backed off sebab kesian dengan diorg, but in the end no ones kesian me back. Hah PADAN MUKA!

So, learn to say NO earlier even you sounds more like someone selling fishes. Forgive my grammar, I'm just trying to exaggerate things. Dannng. At least, saya tak sakitkan hati orang kan?

Okay dah habis marah. Boleh packing and pergi jalan. Adui help me to pretend like I'm fine. BUT I AM NOT. Sigh*


***The longer I stay here, the louder my heart screams "Let me out of here!"***

homesickness, please go away.

I asked him to bring me back home but he doodled this for me. HAHA. Thanks a bunch Omark.
PS: hang tak kata pun tak boleh upload kat blog kan? hihi

_______________________________________________________

Okay. It's been a week after I bought the flight ticket. YAY. Am so going back home. No one knows how much I miss home and everyone back there, but I do know how much they miss me. I remember the well my skype conversation with Ecai, Ekha balik bulan 6, adik tunggu la Ekha okay? He replied, wow. Bulan 6? Lambat la adik kena tunggu. Tapi tunggu jelaaaa.

See, even a 6 years old boy knows how to miss someone,how worth it is to be patient, knows there's nothing else he can do other than to wait. So, you should just be patient and wait. The time will come, sooner or later.

PS: I have Astro exam, less than 24 hours from now, but see what am doing now instead of reading the slides. Abi kata sabar, focus. Okay listen to what Abi said. From Abi, note to myself :

Niat kerana Allah swt.
Ikut Al-Quran.
Guna akal untuk fikir and
remember the 3Ps:
priority. perseverance. pray.

Now that you're on the right track, if you don't do anything, you'll run over. Thanks K Anis.